Pauline's+diary+notes

Back to Heavenly Creatures:HEAVENLY CREATURES - YEAR 13 VISUAL TEXT **Pauline's Diary and **** Writing ** Senior Detective Brown testified at the girls' trial that he found fourteen exercise books, a scrapbook and a diary in Pauline's room. There are living amongst two dutiful daughters Of a man who possesses two beautiful daughters The most glorious beings in creation; They'd be the pride and joy of any nation. You cannot know, nor try to guess, The sweet soothingness of their caress. The outstanding genius of this pair Is understood by few, they are so rare. Compared with these two, every man is a fool. The world is most honoured that they should deign to rule, And above us these goddesses reign on high. I worship the power of these lovely two With that adoring love known to so few. 'Tis indeed a miracle, one must feel, That two such heavenly creatures are real. Both sets of eyes, though different far, hold many mysteries strange. Impassively they watch the race of man decay and change. Hatred burning bright in the brown eyes, with enemies for fuel, Icy scorn glitters in the grey eyes, contemptuous and cruel. Why are men such fools they will not realise The wisdom that is hidden behind those strange eyes? And these wonderful people are you and I.   Pauline Rieper, 1954. (from her diary) 1953, April 3 (Fri) "Today Juliet and I found the key to the Fourth World." 1954, Feb. 13 (Sat) or 14. (Sun) "Why could not mother die? Dozens of people, thousands of people are dying every day. So why not mother, and father too? Life is hard." 1954, April 25 (Mon) "Deborah and I are sticking to one thing. We sink or swim together." 1954, April 28. (Wed) "Anger against mother is boiling inside of me, as it is she who is the main obstacle in my path. Suddenly the means of ridding myself of this obstacle occur to me. If she were to die..." 1954, April 29. (Thurs) "I did not tell Deborah of my plans for removing mother... the last fate I wish to meet is one in a Borstal. I am trying to think of some way... I want it to appear either a natural or an accidental death." 1954, June 06. (Sun) She wrote that she and Juliet Hulme had talked all night about why they behaved as they did. "It is because we are mad. We are both stark, staring, raving mad. There is definitely no doubt about it, and we are thrilled by the thought." 1954, June 12. (Sat) "Eventually we enacted how each saint would make love in bed. We felt exhausted but very satisfied." 1954, June 19. (Sat) "We practically finished our books today and our main 'ike'(sic) for the day was to moider mother. The notion is not a new one, but this time it is a definite plan which we intend to carry out. We have worked it out carefully and are both thrilled with the idea. Naturally we feel a trifle nervous, but the pleasure of anticipation is great." [from the court stenographer's transcript of verbal testimony.] 1954, June 20. (Sun) “... Afterwards we discussed our plans for moidering mother and made them a little clearer. Peculiarly enough I have no qualms of conscience. Or, is it peculiar? We are so mad!"   [the court stenographer's transcript of verbal testimony reads "or is it peculiar we are so mad?] 1954, June 21. (Mon) "We decided to use a rock in a stocking rather than a sandbag. We discussed the moider fully. I feel very keyed up as though I was planning a surprise party. Mother has fallen in with everything beautifully and the happy event is to take place to-morrow afternoon. Next time I write, mother will be dead. How odd, yet how pleasing." 1954, June 22. (Tues) "Day of the Happy Event." "I am writing a little of this up in the morning before the death. I felt very excited and the night before Christmassy last night. I did not have pleasant dreams though." = From court transcripts  = "According to the diary the boy was in bed with her to 3 a.m.?" "Yes." "And the following night he was in bed with her again and was caught by Mr. Rieper?" "That is so." "There are other references to them attempting intercourse?" "That is so." 1954, April 24 ...there is an entry in the diary referring to Dr Hulme saying you [Hilda Hulme] and Dr Hulme were likely to part for private reasons and the future of the marriage was uncertain. In Pauline's diary there was, he said, an entry which says that they had worked out how much prostitutes earned and wondered how much they could earn that way. Pauline also talked a good deal of the fun they would have out of their profession. "Prostitution sounds a good idea to make money and what fun we would have in doing it!" "We are so brilliantly clever, there probably isn't anything we couldn't do." There were references to shoplifting, blackmailing Perry and getting money from her [Juliet] father's safe. During their interrogation at the police station, a piece of paper was confiscated from Pauline. She had tried to burn it. On it was written: "I am taking the blame for everything." 
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